My story is probably similar to so many others out there surrounding the reasons why I chose to leave the world of corporate to pursue a career in the healing arts. I had my own pain, my own trauma that pushed me to the point of breaking and I wanted out. Out of my life, out of my pain, out of my situation. Probably, all of the above. With that intention set, the world started to shift and follow the breadcrumbs, I began.
Who am I and what do I do?
I’m Kyla, a Certified Tao Hands and Emotion Code practitioner, Owner of Awaken Her, an intuitive life coaching business. Through the use of carefully asked healing questions, The Body Code System, Applied Kinesiology, powerful intention, and Source frequency, I have (through my own healing and transformation) built an inner road map that has been blue-printed off my own stuff. I think that this is the only time I’ve been truly thankful to have a whole load of junk in the trunk, lol. Working with clients, I can help them identify and clear the self-limiting beliefs, the negative information and emotional pain that has been keeping them from living a much happier and more purposeful life. With the use of practical techniques, which clients can use in their own lives, the way is paved for long-lasting change.
So why did the walls come crashing down?
Basically, I grew up in an emotionally, physically and later sexually abusive household. I lived my days in fear, emotionally numb and in a dissociative state (I know this now).
For so long I carried so much around with me and I took this pain into adulthood. I didn’t know this and was completely oblivious to how much my past had affected me. I was a bit of an anxious wreck when I look back. EVERY SINGLE DECISION I MADE was based on fear. Fear of being alone, of being rejected, of not being worthy, of being inadequate. The thing is, I didn’t realise this. I was so comfortable and so used to feeling dis-ease it was completely normal for me. I didn’t know any different. Until I woke up, until something, somewhere, told me I had to change. It was time for me to step out of the shadows and become the person I had only dreamt of being. I truly believe that so many of us out there are so comfortable in our pain that we’re completely oblivious to it. That, to me, is a very sobering thought and part of my work is waking people up to the fact that they do not have to accept their current situation as set in stone. Me, you, we
When did I come to realise this?
Well, this happened on the 31st of December 2017. I was alone, I felt hopeless, I felt lost, I felt so low. I had been on a bender that I said I wasn’t going to go on so I was going around that spin shame cycle again. Definitely not how I wanted to spend my first NYE in Sydney, but hey ho, it is what it is. The addiction was active and the only way I knew how to deal with my pain was through drink and drugs as I felt in those moments I could be me, that I was free to be happy, express myself, to feel alive. This is a complete illusion and trying to fill the void of your broken inner child’s heart, is like trying to fill a black hole. Totally ineffective and insatiable.
How did things get to this point?
After a relationship that I was completely lost in ended (co-dependency is not healthy) the damaged child within couldn’t cope with this rejection, the abandonment etc. which sent my entire world spinning out of control. I made some pretty big mistakes as a result, I was a mess. I mean, things were already pretty bad in my head, to begin with, but this, this finally sent the shelves crashing down. Time is great for reflection and I can now see that actually, that relationship was a great training ground for me to learn about how I needed to show up in future relationships as well as how the other person needed to be. When you carry the messages about yourself of being worthless or unworthy, you can’t really expect to attract a relationship that is full of pink unicorns and running through lands of milk and honey can you.
Anyway back to the point.
At the end of December I set the wheels in motion for change, little synchronicities started to manifest and so I started to follow the cosmic breadcrumbs that were being laid out before me. Several books and documentaries later, I found the Emotion Code and The Soulfulness Centre in Sydney. Both of which have been so vital and so integral to my own healing journey. If you had seen me at the start of my journey to now you would be in awe of the transformation. It has been deep. Using Scales of Consciousness, Shame/Trauma Worlds, Inner Protective Systems, Feararchies, transforming the information, the energy, the matter and more I have truly changed my life. I vowed to the Higher Powers that be to help, to coach, and to guide women to do the same! I love, and I am so passionate about, this work as I know it can bring about significant transformation. In less than a year I have gone from wanting my life to end to feeling like my life is just beginning. I have passion, I have purpose and I am open to the possibility that life doesn’t actually have to be so darn hard!
Love you & thank you for reading,